Jai Sri Hari Neelanjan ji,
I am very happy that you are enjoying the posts. This is not just my story but it is everyone's story. Its love, devotion, commitment and surrender to our Guruji.
Don’t think you are any less or not scoring good. You are a divine yourself. You are just in process to discover it. Don’t let your divine down. As per our Guruji, one thing I have learned is, if one gives 100 surrenders with a pure heart, he will come to you.
Enjoy your journey, it’s worth it
Loads of love and respect.